#my love enlighten me

[hivemindscape]

the buddy-buddy act ends now

[fievell]

Trying my hand on this cutie ~ 🫶

[bougiebutchbinch]

Hi sorry if this comes off as rude but...what's a stone top trans?.

You use it with Logan as a headcannon and I'd search it up on Google but..google hasn't been my best friend when it comes to LGBTQ+ and I can't find anything on your page that explains (I maybe I'm blind and there is and I just haven't found it)

haha no worries, not rude at all!

'Stone top' is a term for someone who doesn't like to have their genitalia touched during sex, whether due to dysphoria or just personal preference. I've frequently heard it used among trans men and lesbians especially, though I'm sure other queer folks use it, too! A lot of trans men are stone to some degree, and I wish this was represented more in fandom. To be clear, 'stone' doesn't automatically translate to 'top' or 'dominating'! But it does in Logan's case... >:3

'Top' in general is someone who prefers to penetrate others, rather than to be penetrated. Again, plenty of transmasc tops out there, but a tragic deficit in fandom.

My Logan is a strap king who also likes to fingerfuck and tonguefuck his partners, and do every damn other thing to them besides! He likes to dom! He likes to sub! But he is NOT cool with having his genitalia touched, and certainly not ever cool with being penetrated, anywhere. It doesn't matter if he's with a cis or trans man, a cis or trans woman, or a nonbinary individual. It's not 'something he's not going to get over'. It's not 'because of trauma'. He's not gonna change his mind once he really gets to know his partner. It's just a perfectly valid sexual preference!

Basically I just want to see more trans men topping in fandom, and more stone rep in general! Especially if this preference is treated with respect, rather than as a problem that needs to be fixed; and if the stone top is a fully fleshed out character~

[hanzajesthanza]

i always find it nice how geralt and vilgefortz, as representatives of good and evil, experienced similar circumstances and their good and evil are only the results of how they chose to deal with and respond to those circumstances

but also

[secriden]

i've been thinking and thinking about the significance of the sunflowers parapai sends sky after their first face-to-face meeting post-one night stand and it suddenly hit me why it made such an impact on sky.

prior to this point, sky's attracted to prapai, no question about it. the physical attraction is there pretty much as soon as they lay eyes on each other. even at their one night stand, regardless of the reasons why (tbh my read was that sky wanted it in the moment to feel like he had a way to wrest control over (a) his own body and (b) the situation), sky at least physically seemed to enjoy himself. but its the lack of emotional connection, after the endorphin rush is over, that makes him feel like crap, makes him second-guess his worth and leave feeling used and hallow (and boy oh boy does peat manage to show that so well - he's so so good at wounded).

but then prapai comes back 3 months later, teasing and playful and flirty and still so attractive. sky recognises his own attraction (his self-talky bits are cute but they break my heart), but the one night stand was good enough physically for him to know he doesn't want just that. he doesn't just want to just feel physically good. and he's stuck in the thought that he can never have anything more.

when prapai tells him he's going to pursue him in sky's dorm lobby, he's startled but not shaken. he goes up to his room, essentially tells himself to get out of fantasy land, peeks out the window - but he still fundamentally doesn't engage with the idea that there could be anything real between them.

but the sunflowers and "remember that this wind's watching over the sky". it's protection; its safety.

sky's visibly shaken (peat, oh peat, the vulnerability you managed to convey) and i think this is probably the first time prapai actually manages to get a little bit past the wall sky's already put up between them. and prapai's such a flirty idiot i 100% think he didn't have a clue what he was saying, really. he just thought he was being clever with the unusual flower choice and playing with their names, but in a way that's what makes prapai so perfect for sky.

he's... well, guileless. he's almost accidentally exactly what sky needs to even consider falling in love after everything that happened to him. there's something very clumsy about the charm prapai has and i suspect it's because he's never really had to work to charm anyone before - his looks, money, and status do most of the heavy lifting for him. the fact that he isn't an absolute jerk is pretty much enough for most to be pulled into his orbit. but this works so well for sky because i think someone more suave and actually adapt at wordplay/flirting would have made him run for the hills, because it would have come across as manipulation given his trauma. but prapai is so bad at it (prapai: 'if you don't try it, how do you know?' sky: you absolute fucking idiot did you forget how we met?) that it actually sounds genuine. it makes it safe.

fuck, safety. i feel like it's something everyone wants on some level, but when you've gone through something like that... something where you're betrayed on such a fundamental level by someone you trust, safety becomes the core of what you need. i can deal with hunger, with pain, with loneliness, with being overworked, with being called names or scolded by others - as long as i can maintain that safety. and for sky, that safety always came when he was in his own hands. the only one he could trust with his safety was himself (even as a child, he had no one; alone in Bangkok with a mother who left and a father who cared but was too far away). its why sky isolates; why he'll help his classmates but never ask for help; why he takes the bullying som dishes out without a word.

then prapai comes in and takes care of him when he's sick. his safety is outside of his hands - terrifying. but... also such a relief. i cannot stress how much this was exactly what sky needed. if rain had taken care of him, he would've kicked rain out the second he became conscious. rain doesn't have the backbone/will/character to force the issue. but what prapai did was prioritise sky's safety (health) and for the first time in years, it didn't have to be in his own hands...

(prapai then goes on to makes a lot of other accidentally good choices - comes to Last Cheer and gives him medicine, a place to rest his head, and a quiet space so he can do what he wants (stay to the end, not worry his friends). care, offered at sky's terms. even the bits where prapai's a visibly horny idiot, nearly edging past sky's boundaries but not is counterintuitively perfect because sky sees that prapai's going against what he wants to make sure sky's expressed boundaries are honoured and sees how it costs him something - but, also, i think that speaks more to (a) prapai's growth as a character now that he has a focus that goes beyond the instant gratification of physical release and (b) mame knows her characters and prapai is built to be perfect for sky. honestly most of the skill in writing prapai was the change was gradual enough to be believable in the context of this world. but i digress.)

i just... really adore what prapai did for sky here. like, utter relief that comes from having someone take care of you when you've had to take care of yourself for so long. like a heavy burden suddenly rolling off. and the sunflowers are cheesy but they're the first real hint that this is what's going to make prapai succeed with sky. its not (just) that he's attractive and persistent - that wouldn't have been enough ultimately. (for eg. had phayu pursued sky, he would've also been attractive and persistent but boy would sky have run for the hills with that kind of pursuit. phayu's hot but the manipulation in how he got rain... sometimes i'm baffled by this fandom's take on phayu vs prapai because it's always prapai that everyone calls shady/problematic when he's actually very transparent and honest with his intensions with sky vs the mind games phayu played with rain. i don't have an issue with it because of how rain's character's written - he needed a phayu to get past his internal hang ups - but still, baffling.)

but its how he continually offered to take on the burden of care from sky. so sky could finally actually address the other things he needed. sky didn't have the (physical OR emotional) bandwidth to even consider a relationship until prapai because no one was taking those things off his plate (feeding him, making sure he rests, making sure he took care of himself. like - even when prapai just reminds sky to take care of himself, that's taking some of that mental load off sky having to remember for himself).

honestly this is why when in the scene when sky opens the door to prapai when he's half asleep and then lets prapai feed him, and lets him put him to bed, undress and dress him (all things that would have triggered sky to hell before) - I actually believe it. i believe that sky feels safe around prapai because he's done nothing but actively, persistently offer that to sky over and over again by this point.

anyway, yes, i just really love the sunflower scene for how it gives us that first real glimpse as to why prapai really was perfect for sky.

[fritzmonorail]

Turlough is such a little bitch and I think that’s great. It’s a really interesting take on a DW companion and I’m having a lot of fun with him. He’s great because he does shitty stuff all the time and yet I can’t seem to hate him. That’s not easy to accomplish. This guy was introduced with the goal of killing The Doctor. He’s a slimy snake who keeps throwing people under the bus. And I’m still just like “I hope everything works out for him. I’d hate to see anything bad happen to him.”

Reminds me of when I was going through my MCU Loki phase (which never technically ended. I can flip a switch right now and act as his personal defense attorney.)

Look at The Doctor’s face. Watch the light drain out of his eyes in real time. If ever there was an expression that said “this bitch is so exhausting” this is it.

[akkivee]

mtr:

all named after jp god imagery

team symbol is a cross

jakurai’s mic is a ref of the staff of asclepius, a greek healer who was deified into the god of medicine

jakurai’s got a lot of holy imagery attached to him: angel wings, sins, salvation, etc

dh:

rei swore to be the god of this world

rei’s speaker has the ho-ou bird, a celestial figure in cn/jp mythology

tsuutenkaku means a building that leads to the heavens and is part of their lore

bat:

hitoya has warned jakurai against trying to act as a god (he’s learning to judge humans by their sins and not the human themself, as the catholic/christian god promised)

jyushi’s favourite band and heavy inspiration for his appearance is ‘dreams and gods are fake’ and quotes that phrase in song (but calls hitoya his god)

gods are not the highest veneration in buddhism; buddhas are human. kuukou’s main goal has been to live a life where he can proudly face the buddha (but has had a lot of buddha imagery placed on him: the black crown, sal trees etc)

so they’re like, the holy trinity divisions lmao 🤔

[calitsnow]

Just thinking late at night …

[badwolf-9]

I need people to understand how much this character means to me.

Like, look at him:

He's such a little gremlin, I love him sm!

And the poor bloke is so traumatised

Poor little gremlin :(

[oneluckydragon]

So I decided to spin the wheel by @onefey since I saw so many mutuals getting really cute PMD Teams.

Meet hero Lucky (Girafarig) and partner Biggs (Wimpod). Never in my life have I considered a Girafarig as my potential PMD-sona but here we are despite it all. Even though I was skeptical at first I am now in permanent love.

Gotta think of an Exploration Team name now... hm.

[solunecito]

Hey, @clawtistic, @frankendykez, @rosquinn @marzipan-alligator, @gabriel-shutterson, ^^ 💚💚

[sharknark]

⬇️rant about a really good hengren (reverse renheng) fic i read. link at the bottom give it a whirl

i've never read a fic so well-catered to my tastes before in my life and the best part is that i was so caught off guard by how good it was cuz the tags and summary had me like "right this is some omegaverse-esque, rawr XD mating shit"

but from the very first paragraph i realized it wasn't just ao3-typical possessive mating shit it was (dare i say) IN CHARACTER possessive mating shit. underappreciated dan feng lore is the two hearts shit, duty expects him to smother his own empathy and perform cruelty obediently (and that being in his dragon form literally numbs his empathy towards mortals) but then it's flipped around and he's criticized for being too heartless

there aren't a great many english fics that take advantage of the 'numbed empathy' thing, so this fic using that to explore the toxic codependency that drove dan feng to making yingxing immortal in the first place is so!

dan feng's dragon heart prioritizing it's own indulgence and power, his human heart screaming against it for empathy and restraint, but both hearts united in this possessive adoration of yingxing... dan feng is possessive to the point of harming his partner, forcing them to take his affection, inherently contradictive to the protective impulse to see the other unhurt.

dan feng makes yingxing immortal in a really sketchy operation, despite knowing that yingxing is literally defined by his pride in being a short-life. he wants yingxing to be with him so badly that he does the one thing that would hurt yingxing the most, too blinded by possession, this sickly overbearing affection, to empathetically respect yingxing's death.

yingxing lived cramming every second he could into his craft and his goals precisely because he has so much less time than all the immortal species around him, but when he's forced into immortality, his hands are scarred and ruined past the point of ever crafting again. he suddenly has so much time, all this time he would've cherished as a mortal, but is totally useless to him now that his purpose for living and passion is gone.

so there being a scene in this fic where dan feng is moping "yingxing doesn't wanna fuck because he's glued to his workshop", being followed up with a scene of dan heng fucking blade while kissing his scarred hand and crying that he's "so sorry", yeah no shit asshole, his dragon heart got what it wanted, blade has all the time in the world to fuck and nothing competing for his now limitless attention and no one's happy about it.

as arrogant about being a short-life as yingxing was, it really is compensation for the discrimination he faced for it. other immortals looked down on him, so having dan feng, THE top dog, be so deeply enamored with him stirred his own toxic codependent urges. he was so desperate to have dan feng's eternal regard that he's willing to die for him (as in the sedition), his death being the force cementing his place in dan feng's heart forever.

so the fic having yingxing ruminate on this, that he had hoped for dan feng to love him even centuries after he inevitably died, only for the fic to end with:

yeah yingxing... you left an impression... he made you immortal.... everyone's upset by this

(that's what makes dan heng forgetting blade was ever yingxing to begin with all the more painful because, you went and turned him immortal and when it backfired horrifically you went on and fucking forgot, bitch i'd be pissed to the point of centuries long bloody pursuit of vengeance too.)

here's the fic go read it and leave kudos and a comment, technically porn but i got so invested in the character study that part barely registered. also yeah if you hadn't realized already super dead-dove:

blah blah "renheng is toxic" sorry that's why i like it

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by the lovliest @aprylynn and @cordiallyfuturedwight to kick off this year's musical archive

tagging favs: @thvinyl @kimtaegis @jihopesjoint @visionsofgideontheninth @hoseeok @eoieopda @monismochi <333 and whoever else this (dis)graces the dash of

[piepiepiemag]

golden gear au/young(er) monty!!! wOoOoo!!! im glad i finally got his design down,, something something fanifics,, thank you to my duo for whispering ideas about him into my ear at all times

[giddlygoat]

i feel like an absolute clown when i explain to folks that while yes, i DO casually cosplay as my favorite characters and adopt much of their vernacular and prepare food inspired by their diets and listen to music they enjoy and adjust much of my daily routine to accommodate the hyperfixation, i don’t kin them. i’m just absorbing their power into my own being. this is how i become stronger

[please-read-the-manga]

RIP Madara, you would have loved Cher.

Anyways, this is completely unfounded and purely vibes (I am but a simple cringe gay who likes both Naruto and Cher) but I truly believe Madara would be a Cher fan so I hope someone will enjoy this Cherdara (+Kurama) as the 'Dark Lady' album cover.

Yes, I'm aware this is stupid niche, it came to me as a friend looked through the obscene amount of Cher records I own (early 70's Cher will always be my favorite era) lol.

But tell me these aren't Madara's vibe??

He Ain't Heavy... He's My Brother (G*psys, Tramps, & Thieves)

Let This Be A Lesson To You (Take Me Home)

Outrageous (Prisoner) Picture: Madara prepping for battle/getting his weapons + armor ready.

Heart of Stone (Heart of Stone)

Save Up All Your Tears (Love Hurts) I know this one was on repeat in the cave.

The Power (Believe) This should have been the final Juubidara look/reveal.

Song For the Lonely (Living Proof) Like come ON lol.

Dressed to Kill (Closer to the Truth) Hashirama v. Madara fr...

You Haven't Seen The Last of Me (Closer to the Truth) Madara leaving that homophobic village.

The Winner Takes It All (Dancing Queen) I could do a whole list of Madara and ABBA too lol, maybe this one is cheating.

Also, I am by no means trying to venture into the Naruto 'pairings' discourse/community or anything, but if you subscribe to Madara being gay (and imo I think you can make a case for it and read him that way), I'm just saying there are many fantastic unrequited love/desperate-for-love songs that would work for him lol...

The Way of Love (G*psys, Tramps, & Thieves)

Don't Hide Your Love (Foxy Lady)

I Saw A Man And He Danced With His Wife (Dark Lady)

If I Could Turn Back Time (Heart of Stone)

Strong Enough (Believe) Honestly the whole Believe album lbr.

Not sure if I should admit this so I'm 'hiding' it... but my Madara-Cher agenda is also a minor detail in a dumb 'Alternate Universe' I've been brewing in my head - I haven't been here long, but I've definitely been inspired by all the other ideas people on here come up with for their alternative stories lol.

Brief Synopsis:

I'm thinking it takes place in the late 70s/early 80s. Basically, Izuna drops out of high school because he accidentally knocked up his girlfriend and is now trying to figure out how to raise his daughter (Mikoto) at 17. The birth mom's family doesn't want anything to do with this so he's on his own and lost. He goes to his eldest brother's apartment for help because he's not quite ready to admit to their father/other brothers that he fucked up this bad and I kind of picture the two of them having a special bond as oldest/youngest.

From then on, Izuna raises little Mikoto with the help of his gay (on the dl) older brother which gives a lot of room to explore some interesting dynamics/historical perspectives. Personality-wise for this, I kind of picture that Izuna fancies himself a progressive activist for his time (but cannot hold down a job to save his life/the struggle is real) while Madara is barely afloat himself, trying to make do in a shitty apartment and figure out his own life while also (now) taking care of his brother and niece. The major overarching theme would be that the Uchiha are a family that have their issues, but at the end of the day they are always there for one another no matter what (which is how I've always read them in canon).

Idk, it combines many of my interests/favorite themes with some of my favorite characters lol... and, most importantly, I can make Madara a Cher fan LOL. Never worked on something like that before, but it's a nice distraction to consider, especially during these trying times.

This is the album btw: